Well, 100 degrees can hardly be considered fall weather, but I can't complain. I'm sure it will get cooler soon enough. As long as it's not raining (and sometimes when it is), we can be found outside all the live long day!
My honey had to work out of town this week, so I got a good dose of single parenting. That combined with pregnancy hormones had me feeling pretty weepy yesterday evening. Thankfully, God has helped me recognize the signs of mommy weariness and hormone swings. I used to just succumb to the emotional roller coaster ride and let it take me wherever it wanted to. I've since learned that the destination is not somewhere I want to be! It's a pity ride that leaves me very susceptible to the lies of my Enemy. There's nothing wrong with having a good cry, but in the midst of my tears I have to choose to listen to God's voice and not the voice that is often the loudest.
The lies were coming on strong last night:
"You're not a good mother because you can't keep it all together."
"You're so unorganized and unstructured--it's unfair to your children."
"God can never use you as long as you're so emotional."
I can't say that I didn't entertain them. They're very tempting to believe.
I want to be the best mother I can be, I want to give my children the very best and I want desperately to be an instrument God can use. There are definitely times I fail at accomplishing these goals. I fall short. I miss the mark. But God's gentle voice was there to remind me the truth:
God knows my weaknesses, and He doesn't hold them against me!
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
(2 Corinthians 12:9)
God is patient with me, and his understanding knows no limits.
"He tends his flocks like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young." (Isaiah 40:11)
I rebuked the Enemy's lies and I allowed the Truth of God's word to comfort me. It wasn't easy, but it was so freeing! God kept reminding me over and over of that last verse, "He gently leads those that have young." Hope, a dear blogging friend, reminded me of that verse months ago and it has brought so much comfort to my heart.
So, now that I have had a good cry and a good heart-bearing session I would like to leave you with a little something light for your visit!
You might like these. Your kids will love 'em. We call them "snow animals". Animal crackers slathered in cream cheese. MMMMM-mmmmmm. Yummy.