Maybe that's why I've been a little absent lately (sorry, folks!)
But I promise to tell all...soon.
For now, I just want to share what God has been speaking to my heart.
He's been relentless.
Over and over again, in more than a million ways that I might have missed if He wasn't softening my heart, He's been telling me He Loves Me.
I'm overwhelmed by His heart towards me.
Lately, when I spend time with Him, that's all He wants to talk about.
I've even tried to change the conversation.
But then He gently urges me to just let Him love me.
I've always "known" God loves me. Just look at the Cross--He's never been secretive about it! But at the same time there have been pieces of me that I have labeled as "unloveable". There have been moments in which I have allowed the enemy of my soul to mock me and my glaring failures and to provoke me into questioning the love of my God.
There have also been many moments captured in time where I have felt the arms of God wrap around my soul and I didn't doubt His love for a second.
But even this is different, this relentless love He is cloaking me with. It's as if He's showing me that I was created for Him to love.
And he wants me to just let Him love me.
To sit and just BE with Him.
To LIVE continually in His presence.
A couple weeks ago I remember melting onto my couch, tired and exhausted, but knowing that I needed to let God speak to me during my devotions.
So I threw it out there, "What do you want to say to me today, God?" And I half-expected Him not to answer. Because sometimes He is silent. And it's usually in those times that He wants me to seek Him more diligently, to study His word for His answer, to wait on Him. But most of the time I ask Him to speak to me, He does.
This is what I heard Him say to my heart in that still, small, voice that seekers hear. And when I heard Him speak, there was an urgency to His voice, as if He'd been anxiously waiting for me all day.
"I wept at your birth."
My heart stood still and His words went on.
"I so carefully and lovingly created you in your mother's womb.
It was I who whispered your name in her ear.
My lovely Joye.
My darling daughter.
I was more than overwhelmed.
He wants to speak those words to your own heart today, confessions of His love for you.
A love LIKE THAT can't be ignored.
How could we ever doubt our worth when He loves us LIKE THAT.
Just the other day, I was praying and storming heaven for a miracle. I had spent every tear in my body. Then I turned one of my favorite worship songs on and began to worship. When the song was over, God told me to play it again, but THIS TIME
He wanted to sing the chorus to me.
And I've posted it here because you just may need to hear Him sing these words to your heart as well. Don't doubt that he does.
This is for you.
God's heart yearns for you.
Can you feel him waiting for you? Can you sense His arms aching to hold you? Can you hear his heart calling you?
Let Him love you.